Let Her Go…


I know Passenger originally sang this song but Jasmine Thompson’s voice is amazing!


You only know you love her when you let her go…

My Granddaddy always said- “You’ll never miss the water till the well runs dry!”.

Sometimes in life, love isn’t enough, compassion isn’t enough, caring isn’t enough, thoughtfulness isn’t enough, being there for someone isn’t enough, having a open loving heart isn’t enough BUT no matter what; in those “sometimes’ moments— YOU ARE STILL ENOUGH!!!! You are good enough, strong enough, YOU are loved, cherished, admired and wanted by someone! We all are!

There is always someone else going through your same struggles, pains and discouragement. You were made to heal, live, love and survive. Broken hearts heals, the bruises fade away the pain slowly turns to scars and you pick yourself back up, dust off and keep it moving!

Life isn’t easy. It wasn’t made to be easy. Without all the sweat and tears how else are we to become stronger? That backbone often spoken of, we all have it. Only you can determine how strong it really is. Only you can say when it’s broken, bent or torn. Only you have the power to use it to stand back up and say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

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Never be someones door mat. I don’t care who they are. You are special and were made with such a great and powerful love to have to even be treated less than you ever deserve. Do good and don’t change no matter how many times you get pushed to the side, walked on or treated poorly. At the end of everyday, lie your head down and know that you can smile because you gave the day and all the people in it your best! No one can take that from you! No one can take anything from you no matter how hard they try to belittle and destroy you.

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Some people “learn” you so well that they no exactly how to manipulate you. They know how far they can push your buttons and then when they need to “reel” you back in. They don’t want you but they don’t want to lose you. They benefit in some way from you but you won’t see that until you’re vision isn’t blurred by love. They will continue to do this until YOU decide that they are done toying with your heart, life and emotions.

We all know that it hurts like hell to breakup or let go of someone we truly love and care about. But you have to decide whom do you love more-Them or YOU? It is okay to sit around and cry about it but you gotta GET BACK UP and Move On! If they want to continue to do the things they know cause you pain- Let Them Go, they didn’t want a TOP SPOT in your life to begin with!


Seasonal people with lifetime expectations…..




“You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.”

 – Andre Gide

A recent fear that I would like to overcome …

Fear of letting go and having faith in whats to be will be! I love/hate the quote:

 “If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.” – Unknown

Because if you love something so much, why do you even have to let it go? Why do you have to make a choice between the thing you love and wait to see if its meant to be? I mean I get it… but it doesn’t make things easier just because you understand its meaning. I feel like if you love something or someone you should be able to keep them forever.. Okay, enough of this because this right here; breaks my entire heart! I’m not ready for this yet!

Why does this fear make me feel scared and uncomfortable?

Because I love so hard and hold onto hope till my hands bleed. I’m so afraid that the person will move on and forget how much love I have for them, how much I want them and how hard I just want to see them happy and keep them forever. I don’t want tto “chance” it not working out or him coming back. The fear of him walking away loving someone else hurts so deep into my heart. But like the quote above… If it was meant to be, he will come back…. he will see how badly I love adn want him in my life..

Why does it matter to me that I overcome this fear?

I need to stop holding myself accountable for others actions and choices. I want tto always know and feel in my heart that I did the best that I could and that if someone wants to walk out of my life, it was their choice and that if I loved, respected, helped, encouraged and was  there for that person like I should be; there is/was nothing else I could do to make them stay or come back.

Why have I previously been unable to overcome this fear?

Because to me, I’ve always felt letting go/walking away was a sign of my weakness and that I was a quitter… But now after answering these questions, I feel like I was only quitting myself when I stayed in the bad situations that I never actually deserved. And I only became week when I stuck in it all and let the words and actions of someone I truly was in-love with tear and break me down. I am strong when I see my self worth, I am strong when I know I deserve better and walk away and I am strong when I love me for who and how I am. I have respect for myself and my heart. I know that all that I do, do; I do in-love ad out of love for people. I just want people more so Deric Faulkner right now that; just because I walked away doesn’t mean I don’t want you or love you but I love me more and I want us both to be happy and that if in this time it helps you and changes you’ I’ll be here!

CURIOUS: eager to know or learn something


“To share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable; to make yourself vulnerable is to show your strength.”


– Criss Jami

A weakness that I’m struggling with …

Letting go of the past… Loving someone so very much and having no choice but to let them go from your life and heart is so hard. I am struggling with how much I miss Deric and how badly I have wanted him to come back and fix every part of us that he broke.

Today, I will be courageously vulnerable by sharing my weakness with the following person …

I feel as if I’ve already been being courageous with this.  I have people that I can call or message when I am feeling really down and I express to them that I am struggling with this. So I can’t pick just one person and I also don’t feel like I am struggling today. Yesterday was the 1st day I haven’t cried and broke down. I woke up this morning feeling happy and bubbly and more like my old self again. My hope is that I don’t need to call or text anyone today about a struggle, just a hope and a happy place 🙂



“If you are not the hero of your own story, then you’re missing the whole point of your humanity.”

– Steve Maraboli

If my life was a movie and it started today, what would the hero do?:

The Hero would be a woman and she would show me through her eyes what she really see’s when she looks at me. She would be able to show me the future and how I made it and and overcame every obstacle that was placed in my paths. She wouldn’t save me but guide me, direct me and help me through things. She would listen and be there for me and would love me as her own.

What old routines and patterns would the hero break?:

She would break me of all the negativity that I see, say and do about myself. She would break me from “settling” for less than I deserved. She would help me to see that I am valuable, loved, cared for, respected and courageous. She would help guide me away form anyone or anything that wasn’t beneficial or healthy for me and my life.

What new habits would the hero replace those old habits with?:

Self Love and admiration. Respect for myself. Knowing my worth and value. Being brave and courageous. Not putting up with any B.S. The ability to see and acknowledge when a situation isn’t good for me.

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1 week later….

“If you don’t know where you are going, you might not get there.”


I have 24 days left in my 30-day goal to    (insert 30-day goal)   .
Which means within two weeks, I need to
  (insert 2-week goal)   .
Which means in a week, I need to 
  (insert 1-week goal)   .
Which means in the next three days, I need to    (insert 3-day goal)   .
To hit that 3-day goal, today I need to  
  (insert today’s goal)   .

I have 24 days left in my 30-day goal to: Learn to wholeheartedly love myself, let go of the past that hurt me and to forgive the people that have hurt me.

Which means within two weeks: I need to acknowledge all past hurts and failures, forgive myself and keep reminding my self that I AM Good Enough.

Which means in a week I need to: Embrace the time I have by myself and use it very diligently to help myself complete my goals I have set for my own life.

Which means in the next 3 days I need to: Come up with a plan and put that plan into action by day 3 of how I can make these goals a reality and live with them and by them.

To hit that 3-day goal, today I need to: Stay focused on Myself and the “prize”  I am preparing for myself. I need to not be hard on myself today, I need to not worry if Deric is missing me or thinking about me or spending his time with another woman. I need to worry about myself because at the end of the day, I am only solely responsible for Me, Myself and I! I can’t change the past- I can learn from it, move on from it and pray about it but I Can Not Change It!


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SELF-AWARE: having conscious knowledge of one’s own character and feelings.

One of my greatest strengths has always been …​

My heart… super cliche but very true. I have a HUGE heart!  I love, loving . I love giving love. I love receiving love. I love the gentleness of love. I love the feel of love. I love the taste of love. I love being in-love. I love all the ways you can show love.

I am so forgiving and understanding. I give out so many chances and opportunities. I love to help people. I love to see others do good. I love to see them grow. I love to see them be at their fullest potential. I love to motivate people. I love encourage people. I love to be the one person that anyone in my life knows that they can always turn to no matter what.

Today’s Challenge was to ask a couple close people that you trust and are always honest with you. I asked my Mother and brother what they think are my greatest and weakest strengths.


Mother said:

The love you give is unconditional. Your love for Daevohn (my son). Faithful, Kind, Loving and sweet. You’re very smart, beautiful (inside & out)


You have no filter so you are honest even when it isn’t the easiest things to say to people

One of my greatest weaknesses that I acknowledge …

Gosh… I have a hard time letting people go. I give my all and try my best to fix everything. I feel like love can conquer anything and if you just give it enough, things will change. I hold onto people far to long. It’s like I know in my heart that their “chapter” is over but at the same time I feel like if I wait a little longer, love a little harder– that they will be at the end in my “Happily Ever After”.

Letting go is never easy for me. It seriously feels like a death. I tend to take all of the blame on things when they end. I allow others to make me feel certain ways even though my heart and brain know they aren’t true. I try very hard to just work all things out and I hate feeling like I “quit”… when really- the other person never started…



Letting people walk on you

Brother Cam

You care way to much what others think and are always searching for someone to make you happy when happiness comes from within

What’s your intention?

My Greatest Intention is to Love Myself! I want to Love me for who I am, what I am, how I am. I want to love myself unconditionally. I want to be confident in myself no matter what it is. I want to always believe in myself and and have faith in myself.

“The first step to realizing our truest intentions is getting in the habit of thinking about it in the first place. When we put the light of intention on something, reality starts unfolding itself. By noticing what’s driving you, you can begin to take the wheel and steer towards what really matters.”

After going through yet another break up… I find myself lost and down and really doubting myself. I am taking this 30 day challenge with today being day 1 to learn to love, respect, honor and trust myself. After being told everyday that you’re a bitch, a hoe, a thot, stupid ass and dumb ass; it kinda gets to you. Even though deep down, you know that non of these things are true in fact, they are all furthest from the truth. But to dig yourself out of that deep dark place, sometimes takes baby steps. Today is day 1 of my first steps.

This relationship lasted 10 months. In 10 months I was cheated on 9 different times, hit in the forehead several times, “chest bumped” on many occasions, lied to, deceived, used, I paid $1,600 in cash for a jeep, bought his sons birthday gifts and treated like I was the scum of the earth.

I provided for this man. He didn’t want to work and couldn’t keep a job. He didn’t have a vehicle, so I bought him a jeep- which in-turn he used to cheat on me… He didn’t have money for food, clothes, bathroom supplies, nothing. I took him in as he was and loved him back to life. I loved him enough to get him on his feet and to help him.

He had a suspended license when I met him, which he hid and lied about. I end up paying almost $1,000 in court fees to keep him out of jail and to finally after 7 years be legal to drive.

My point is a couple things…

  1. Don’t let anyone treat you less than you know you deserve
  2. Never let anyone use you or take advantage of you
  3. Look at all the facts of the person before jumping head first eyes closed
  4. Money can’t buy LOVE
  5. No matter how good of a person you are or how BIG your heart is; there is always going to be someone out there who wont appreciate it- And that’s OKAY
  6. Don’t blame yourself for the choices others make- especially when you know in YOUR heart you tired the best you could and you loved as hard as you could!
  7. Most of all— LOVE YOURSELF through ALL of it! The Good, Bad and Ugly!

Day 1—- Challenge Excepted